Love is too Painful for me !

hmm.. i'll just get right to the point, ma feyah 3al-m8ademat :) !
so I started reading this story fe mentada here is the link: http://www.alamuae.com/story/showthread.php?t=70 .. but I honestly ma an9a7kom tegroonha, it's good and all.. but it's also heart-breaking.. I can't stop myself from crying over it !!
I couldn't even finish it..

I will be sixteen this june, and like every sixteen years old girl.. I've been dreaming for, emm a while now :P, about my prince charming, about the perfect man that I will find one day, that will actually love me!! but reading this story made me think about it from another concept!

Loving someone in such a way, would eventually destroy me! cause one day I will lose my prince charming! No matter how much I loved him, no matter how much he loved me, no matter how much we tried to carry our love in our hearts, we will lose everything one day.. if not by our own deeds, by Death! one day we will..

This story made me realize, that I might not wanna be in love after all! yes love is pretty indeed! but losing it is unbearably painful on the other hand, and I honestly don't think I'm strong enough to take such an excruciating feeling!

My mom once told me:" Marwa, La T7been 7ad fe 7yatch l-darajat ennich Ma troomeen t3eesheen bdoonah!! ".. she sounded so serious, and I thought how heartless can my mother be :S! but now when I look back at it.. She was just, she is just trying to protect me from getting hurt! so yes mother.. as long as I can help it, I will try my best not to fall so deep in love! I promise :)

عشان تتفادى جروح وخسارات . . "سَطح علاقاتڪ" مع الناس تِسلّم

I've never lost someone dear till now *el-7emdellah* but I can't even imagine myself in such a situation! and I definitely do not wanna try the feeling!
so Ya Rabii Ykoon Yoomi Gabel Yoom Kel 7ad a7ebah !!!! YA RAB >.<
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Weewie <3