Love is too Painful for me !

hmm.. i'll just get right to the point, ma feyah 3al-m8ademat :) !
so I started reading this story fe mentada here is the link: http://www.alamuae.com/story/showthread.php?t=70 .. but I honestly ma an9a7kom tegroonha, it's good and all.. but it's also heart-breaking.. I can't stop myself from crying over it !!
I couldn't even finish it..

I will be sixteen this june, and like every sixteen years old girl.. I've been dreaming for, emm a while now :P, about my prince charming, about the perfect man that I will find one day, that will actually love me!! but reading this story made me think about it from another concept!

Loving someone in such a way, would eventually destroy me! cause one day I will lose my prince charming! No matter how much I loved him, no matter how much he loved me, no matter how much we tried to carry our love in our hearts, we will lose everything one day.. if not by our own deeds, by Death! one day we will..

This story made me realize, that I might not wanna be in love after all! yes love is pretty indeed! but losing it is unbearably painful on the other hand, and I honestly don't think I'm strong enough to take such an excruciating feeling!

My mom once told me:" Marwa, La T7been 7ad fe 7yatch l-darajat ennich Ma troomeen t3eesheen bdoonah!! ".. she sounded so serious, and I thought how heartless can my mother be :S! but now when I look back at it.. She was just, she is just trying to protect me from getting hurt! so yes mother.. as long as I can help it, I will try my best not to fall so deep in love! I promise :)

عشان تتفادى جروح وخسارات . . "سَطح علاقاتڪ" مع الناس تِسلّم

I've never lost someone dear till now *el-7emdellah* but I can't even imagine myself in such a situation! and I definitely do not wanna try the feeling!
so Ya Rabii Ykoon Yoomi Gabel Yoom Kel 7ad a7ebah !!!! YA RAB >.<
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Weewie <3

Boring Friday!

hmm..
I am back in two days !! Can you imagine :D
ta6awor huh?! :P
emm so I'm super bored though I have lots of work to do, but I choose to be bored instead :P hehe *a*..
So Nada my annoying sister woke me up at 7:oo am today!!!! and all she said was :" Marwa, are you up?.. ana sayra el-PI, call me yoom bat9a7-9e7een " and Left, and I was like WTF Dude !! you wake me up w-tseereen w-you don't even tell me the reason you did!! god i hate her so much right now!! 6ab3an I couldn't sleep after she left.. I kept trying to sleep so hard, but when I realized I wasn't gonna go back to bed I managed to pull myself out of bed! *super tired ofcourse*.. and now I have a terrible headache because of my smart sister!! -.-"
aaah , Shu ba3d?!
emm that's it I guess!!

Lee Raj3ah ;P

لا تطوّل الغيبة

Hey Dear Page..
Been a while, huh?
Well I don't have much to say but i was just going through my documents when i found hal-g9eeda which i wrote to my sister "awannah" when she was fe Washington D.C. without me, can you imagine?! el-mohem.. so yeah I missed her so much while she was gone, GOD I'm such a good sister :P.. I wrote this on her second day in D.C. but after I got into the mood, my feelings got all mixed up and you would notice at some point that I'm talking about someone else :P
and I know it's not that good, but this is my first try, Enjoy *a*!

لا تطوّل الغيبة ترى القلب ولهان
ولهان و محتاج لدفاك و سكونك

صورَتك تفرح قلب مهموم و زعلان
"و بسمَتك تسعد خاطرن قال :"عونك

معقولة يعني ترحل و قلبي تعبان؟
معقول طيفي ما زار مرة عيونك؟

معقولة أنا أقضي الليل سهران
و انته تنام و دومك مريّح جفونك

أبكي و أنوح و تشب في الجوف نيران
و القلب ما ينبض للحظة بدونك

أوقات أقول إنك عن الوصل عيزان
لأنك مهم جداً و أعمالك يشغلونك

و أوقات أحن و أبكي و أذكّر أحيان
أيام فيها كان فرَحك و جنونك

ياخي خلاص افهم و يكفيك حقران
قلبي و عقلي و مشاعري يحتوونك

خلاص ارجع ارجع أرجوك يا فلان
ترى كل البشر عندي ما يسوونك




Weewie..
26-March-2010