I Expect ..

Hey All
hope your having a pleasant day, because honestly I'm not.

I'm writing this post and I have two exams tomorrow [Chemistry and Geology].
I also have two red eyes drown in tears !
You know, I always knew I had a problem, but never knew what it is !. But I think it's all clear now.
I expect ! .. I expect too much !
I expect people them to understand me when I need someone to understand what I'm being through ! [ But I'm seriously starting to believe that I'm impossible to understand ]
I expect them to feel me when I'm down.
I expect them to comfort me when I need comforting.
I also expect to have the people I LOST back .. To be able to hold them once more .. And to be able to tell them how much I loved them for once .. To say the goodbye we NEVER said .. And to have one more memory to hold on to.
I expect people to do the things I want them to do ..
But Guess What ! .. They NEVER Do what I expect them to ! ,, and I'm Done Expecting !

So I'm gonna take this opportunity to promise myself this : " I WILL NEVER EXPECT ANYTHING FROM PEOPLE EVER AGAIN " .. And if I ever do ! I will Remember this day and what happened in this exact moment, and because i know myself more than anyone else .. I know that I will stick to my promise .. Because despite all the bad points in me .. This is the one thing I know it will never change .. I'M A GIRL OF MY WORD !

So to all those people out there who share me the same problems .. I say : " This is a day to change our habits and get new ones .. one of them will always be [ NOT EXPECTING ] "

Yours Ever .. Weewie