Weewie's Spot

Lonliness

2010-12-27T08:28:00.000-08:00

So here I am writing again.. because i'm desperate.. and because I have no one to talk to. It's not like there's anything to talk about, it's just that I've been feeling really AWFULLY lonely these past few days.
My sister had finals, today was her last day :) and my best friend in the world is in Thailand. But the real reason why I haven't talked to them lately is not because they're not around or they're not here for me.. no bel-3axxx wallah!! they're really the BEST, and I consider myself lucky just to have them in my life.
It's just that those particular indivisuals are *I dare say* the STRONGEST girls I have ever known.. and I feel so silly talking to them about whatever is on my mind, because I know what they both are going through.. I know how much pain they're suffering at this time of they're lives. I mean they have enough issues to worry about already, I can't selfishly start complaining about my life like nothing else matters but me.
As I said, they have enough issues to deal with, and that's also another thing that just KILLS me.. watching your loved ones hurt like that, knowing that with every word they say they're hurting, that every smile they draw on they're angel like faces, is fake but they smile anyway because they wanna go through the day and that's the only way they know how to.
Yet another reason for my unlimited sadness, is that my vacation started a week ago and it ends next week.. I have done ABSOLUTELY nothing during this holiday.. My mother is being a PAIIN..... and she wouldn't let me go out with my friends, and a million other reasons that I just don't wanna start talking about right now.. it's partly because I dunno what to start with, but mostly because I know I'm gonna end up crying, and I also don't think that I will ever stop writing if I ever started. Another reason is that because simply there are somethings you just like to keep to yourself :).
Oh yeah, so I decided to decrease the amount of times I cry, I'm trying to control it LOL! I really hope it works out *sigh*..
And Last but not least, I just got off the phone with A. an online friend that I have known for AGES.. seriously I can't even remember since when, and she really is a sweet heart.. so yeah today was our first phone call, it really felt good :)

till next time,
xoxo.

would you like you if u met you ? :P

2010-09-01T18:43:00.001-07:00

would you like you if u met you ? :P

Answer here

5th-May-2010

2010-06-18T12:51:00.000-07:00

One of my writings, it's not that good adry :)

أنـا أحبـك و لكنـي أخـافك تجـرح إحسـاسي
و أنـا مـا أريـد هـذا القلـب كـل يـوميـن يتكسّـر

جلسـت البـارح أفكـر يجي و يـروح وسواسـي
و أخـاف فـوادي لـو كثـّر فـي هالتفكيـر يتـفجـّر

سهرت الليل أنـا أحاتي و بيـدي قـابض أنفـاسي
"تغيـب اليـوم و إلا تعـود ؟ و قلبك قلبي يتذكّر ؟"

علـى كيفـك تصدّ و تـردّ و أنا قلبـي معك نـاسي
و مـالي غيـر أنا أتـريّا رجـوعك ليّـه و أتصبـّر

رغـم كـل هـذا أنـا أحبـك حـبٍ مالـه قيـاسـي
و لكـن قلبـك القـاسي رغـم كـل هـذا مـتحـجّـر

حـلمت إنـّك معـي قـاعد و كل أهلنـا جـلّاسي
علّـمنـي بـمعنـي الحلـم إذا هالحـلـم يتفـسـّر

I have absolutely nothing to say,
bss DAMN i knew it !! :')

Weewie. <3

Love is too Painful for me !

2010-05-17T09:47:00.000-07:00

hmm.. i'll just get right to the point, ma feyah 3al-m8ademat :) !
so I started reading this story fe mentada here is the link: http://www.alamuae.com/story/showthread.php?t=70 .. but I honestly ma an9a7kom tegroonha, it's good and all.. but it's also heart-breaking.. I can't stop myself from crying over it !!
I couldn't even finish it..

I will be sixteen this june, and like every sixteen years old girl.. I've been dreaming for, emm a while now :P, about my prince charming, about the perfect man that I will find one day, that will actually love me!! but reading this story made me think about it from another concept!

Loving someone in such a way, would eventually destroy me! cause one day I will lose my prince charming! No matter how much I loved him, no matter how much he loved me, no matter how much we tried to carry our love in our hearts, we will lose everything one day.. if not by our own deeds, by Death! one day we will..

This story made me realize, that I might not wanna be in love after all! yes love is pretty indeed! but losing it is unbearably painful on the other hand, and I honestly don't think I'm strong enough to take such an excruciating feeling!

My mom once told me:" Marwa, La T7been 7ad fe 7yatch l-darajat ennich Ma troomeen t3eesheen bdoonah!! ".. she sounded so serious, and I thought how heartless can my mother be :S! but now when I look back at it.. She was just, she is just trying to protect me from getting hurt! so yes mother.. as long as I can help it, I will try my best not to fall so deep in love! I promise :)

عشان تتفادى جروح وخسارات . . "سَطح علاقاتڪ" مع الناس تِسلّم

I've never lost someone dear till now *el-7emdellah* but I can't even imagine myself in such a situation! and I definitely do not wanna try the feeling!
so Ya Rabii Ykoon Yoomi Gabel Yoom Kel 7ad a7ebah !!!! YA RAB >.<
--
Weewie <3

Boring Friday!

2010-05-07T08:56:00.000-07:00

hmm..
I am back in two days !! Can you imagine :D
ta6awor huh?! :P
emm so I'm super bored though I have lots of work to do, but I choose to be bored instead :P hehe *a*..
So Nada my annoying sister woke me up at 7:oo am today!!!! and all she said was :" Marwa, are you up?.. ana sayra el-PI, call me yoom bat9a7-9e7een " and Left, and I was like WTF Dude !! you wake me up w-tseereen w-you don't even tell me the reason you did!! god i hate her so much right now!! 6ab3an I couldn't sleep after she left.. I kept trying to sleep so hard, but when I realized I wasn't gonna go back to bed I managed to pull myself out of bed! *super tired ofcourse*.. and now I have a terrible headache because of my smart sister!! -.-"
aaah , Shu ba3d?!
emm that's it I guess!!

Lee Raj3ah ;P

لا تطوّل الغيبة

2010-05-05T09:08:00.000-07:00

Hey Dear Page..
Been a while, huh?
Well I don't have much to say but i was just going through my documents when i found hal-g9eeda which i wrote to my sister "awannah" when she was fe Washington D.C. without me, can you imagine?! el-mohem.. so yeah I missed her so much while she was gone, GOD I'm such a good sister :P.. I wrote this on her second day in D.C. but after I got into the mood, my feelings got all mixed up and you would notice at some point that I'm talking about someone else :P
and I know it's not that good, but this is my first try, Enjoy *a*!

لا تطوّل الغيبة ترى القلب ولهان
ولهان و محتاج لدفاك و سكونك

صورَتك تفرح قلب مهموم و زعلان
"و بسمَتك تسعد خاطرن قال :"عونك

معقولة يعني ترحل و قلبي تعبان؟
معقول طيفي ما زار مرة عيونك؟

معقولة أنا أقضي الليل سهران
و انته تنام و دومك مريّح جفونك

أبكي و أنوح و تشب في الجوف نيران
و القلب ما ينبض للحظة بدونك

أوقات أقول إنك عن الوصل عيزان
لأنك مهم جداً و أعمالك يشغلونك

و أوقات أحن و أبكي و أذكّر أحيان
أيام فيها كان فرَحك و جنونك

ياخي خلاص افهم و يكفيك حقران
قلبي و عقلي و مشاعري يحتوونك

خلاص ارجع ارجع أرجوك يا فلان
ترى كل البشر عندي ما يسوونك

Weewie..
26-March-2010

My Vision and Mission

2010-01-09T01:06:00.000-08:00

Hey Dear Page <3

So our English teacher told us that each student should make a portfolio of her own and it should include your CV, samples of your writings, your vision and mission and some certificates and awards!

So as a kind of help she allowed us to take or let me say *steal* a "vision and mission" from the internet and put it in our portfolio, you must think what kind of a teacher would ask her pupils to do such things, well ours would!!

Anyway, since it's not that hard i've decided to write my own vision and mission.. but I ended up laughing at what i wrote :P, and i've decided to post it here!! XD

Now Don't Laugh you guys :P

My Vision :-
Is to fulfill my dreams and achieve all my expectations, but also to make sure that I accomplish all of that by my own effort, and keep god on my mind!

My Mission :-
Is to live my life with high spirits and not to regret my mistakes and faults, but to learn from them, so that I don’t repeat them. And of course to take responsibility of my actions and deeds. I also think that it’s my mission to work on getting the best out of my education, and try to extend my knowledge to the highest level I can reach, and to achieve that I have to consider all the criticizes I get and receive them with good manners and look for the negativities and try to fix them.

Peace Out
Xoxo

Last day of Summer :D

2009-09-26T16:03:00.000-07:00

SHIT SHIT SHIIIIT :S !!
Tomorrow is my first day of school :S . . and What is it . . Like 3:05 a.m. , and guess what , I Can't Sleep -.-"
Nothing new ya3nii , bss no 7ARAM ! I need to rest before my first day of this SHIT !! I mean School -.-'' . . AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH , Feel like crying T.T , well . . not really , bss ya3nii :S
Sho haa ! I Should sleep . . EFFFF !!
anyway I'mma Talk about my day :D
I had a pretty good one (Y) . So I went out with my best friends :D , 6ab3an we're enjoying our summer till the last minute XD . . so we went to the marina :D
it Was SUPER fun . . There was 6ab3an wayed hotties :P w-They say I looked cute today (a) [and by they i mean my bffs :P]
So There was this really CUTE guy , Chii LOVELY ! Handsome , Tall , Around 20 or SO !! which is SO HOT !! He was really cute :P and omg he was totally checking me out !! :P .. Ewww okay I know that sounded SOOOO WRONG ! , bss No wallah :P , He wasn't checking me out in that disgusting way :P . . La 7laailah , He was just looking ya3nii !
Chii I was soo into this totally Cool story that I was telling My Friends all about it , and I noticed enna he was cute , bss ana chee 6af ya3nii so what :P . . so I moved my eyes 3ala 6ool . . bss When I Looked at him again . . guess what , he was still looking AT ME (AA) . . omg that was SO embarrassing ;$ . . Hehe (a) , and No he wasn't looking like he was Sar7an or something . . it felt like he was looking at me ya3nii :P
fa Chii est7aait and I thought noway I'm not even pretty , why would he check me out . . so Chi nazalt rasii and I was like : " What is he looking at ? " , and My friends were like . . : " YEAAAH ! WHY IS HE LOOKING AT YOU ! "
LOOOOL , That was soooo Fuunnnnnnnnny and REAL embarrassing ;$
emm . . We Really had fun today , I'm glad we enjoyed our last day of vacation xD

With Love . .
Weewz ;**

Boring night :P

2009-09-25T15:52:00.000-07:00

Hey there my lonely page :D
emm , I don't really have anything in mind . . bss i'm really really bored w-i just finished reading this AMAZING story on this local girl's blog page :D
I am loving her story mashallah she is really good (Y) , it really makes me happy to see that there are actually girls who write and what's really great that she also have readers and stuff . . walla 7elw chii :D
ya3nii it truns out we locals aren't so pethatic as westerns discribe us . . aaah how much i despise them for that >.<" !! so Back to my point :P . . Yeah I just finished All Her posts @.@ :P and I can't wait for her new one :D (Y) Emm , so I think i'mma go back to reading "New moon" , since I stopped reading it in the holly month of Ramadan x'D . .
hmm . .
What else ???
oOh RIGHT !!
I just got back from AD mall and I saw my friend Shaden :D . . 7ayatiii me miss her LOADZ !! \o/
and Guess who ELSE did i see in AD MALL (A) !
One of my BFF's Cousin :P (aaa) DAMN he is HOT !! o.O" :P
LOOL . . but no 7araam , He is weld 3amha fel-a5eer -.-" I Can't steal him from her :P though she CLAIMS that she hates him -.-" , But I'm as HELL SURE she does NOT !! haha (6)
:P .. I'm seeing her tomorrow fel-Marina (a) . . oooh I can tease her about it all I want XD

So I guess This is it for tonight . . I'mma Hit the shower now :D
Till Next time :D . .
w-I Promise I Won't Be long :DDDD
Love You my Dear Lonely Page *kk*

I Can't Talk about it !

2009-07-05T16:07:00.000-07:00

It sucks to keep a secret ! .. and it sucks even more when you can't talk about this little secret to the ONLY person you feel comfortable discussing such a subject with !
And all that is just because that person just doesn't like talking about that subject that's bothering you !
I don't really understand ! .. I mean I know that life isn't fair ! But aren't Friends supposed to be there for each other, aren't families are meant to support each other !
Then Why is it I am always there when someone needs me !
why is it I am always Ready to talk about anything on that persons mind !, so that she knows that I will hold her hand every step of the way !
But when I Come to her , when I Start mentioning the subject, her face changes and she gives me this look which says : " Stop it there " which totally says : " Don't Complete ! "
Why Does She Roll Her Eyes , and Starts staring at the ceiling when I Talk to her about it !
Why Does She Do that !
I'm Lost .. and I need someone to hold my hands this one time !
Why is The only person I see is NO ONE !

I Expect ..

2009-03-08T03:08:00.000-07:00

Hey All
hope your having a pleasant day, because honestly I'm not.

I'm writing this post and I have two exams tomorrow [Chemistry and Geology].
I also have two red eyes drown in tears !
You know, I always knew I had a problem, but never knew what it is !. But I think it's all clear now.
I expect ! .. I expect too much !
I expect people them to understand me when I need someone to understand what I'm being through ! [ But I'm seriously starting to believe that I'm impossible to understand ]
I expect them to feel me when I'm down.
I expect them to comfort me when I need comforting.
I also expect to have the people I LOST back .. To be able to hold them once more .. And to be able to tell them how much I loved them for once .. To say the goodbye we NEVER said .. And to have one more memory to hold on to.
I expect people to do the things I want them to do ..
But Guess What ! .. They NEVER Do what I expect them to ! ,, and I'm Done Expecting !

So I'm gonna take this opportunity to promise myself this : " I WILL NEVER EXPECT ANYTHING FROM PEOPLE EVER AGAIN " .. And if I ever do ! I will Remember this day and what happened in this exact moment, and because i know myself more than anyone else .. I know that I will stick to my promise .. Because despite all the bad points in me .. This is the one thing I know it will never change .. I'M A GIRL OF MY WORD !

So to all those people out there who share me the same problems .. I say : " This is a day to change our habits and get new ones .. one of them will always be [ NOT EXPECTING ] "

Yours Ever .. Weewie

SCHOOL SUCKS !

2008-11-16T05:52:00.000-08:00

Hey all !

I'd Like to Start this post by bursting out all my complains, don't mean to freak you guys out .. but nothing seems to relief me from this stress !

First of all, SCHOOL SUCKS .. big time ! were having this stupid -on going assesment - as they call it .. it sucks and it's taking hell much of our energy and I Really think it's nothing but a waste of time and effort, some think it's really great because they say it helps students keep up with their studies and that that will help them a lot in their final exams, But that's just because THEY never had an on going assesment .. I mean DAMN .. Can You imagine having to take an exam EVERDAY without having one single day OFF ! not to mention of course the quizzes and Projects [ damn I have so much projects to do >.<] and also the Stupid long and Believe me when i say HARD homeworks our Teachers ask us to do ! COME ON People Give Us a Break .. We're Human Beings too you know !

Let Me talk about the Projects .. Cause I Really wanna Talk about these Fucked Up projects that we were supposed to finish and give to the teachers to check by like TODAY !
and of course none of us had the time to finish any of them !

SERIOUSLY People I take NINE Subjects ! NINE ! and that means one project for each subject ! Not to mention the Extra Work Teachers ask us to do for extra marks and bonuses !

And of course I Didn't finish anything till now but the history, Arabic, Islamic and Geography Report !! and that Leaves me With the Biology, Chemistry, Physics, Math and Geology Projects !
but thanks god projects are a team work, Well supposed to be !

And OF COURSE that I'm not surprised, no one is Really working in my group except me and My Friend eL-7eLwa [Love You Hun. You're The BEST], But no .. Some of the girls really wanna work but they just can't, and they have thier own reasons. While in the other hand there are girls that won't even Bother helping or keeping up with the news and where we got with our projects !

Anyway, I have an Arabic exam tomorrow and I better go study because -and I'm not Proud to say- but I SUCKED in the Previous exam :P .. LOL
3emerkom Chefto Wa7da Tzafet Fee emte7an 3aRaBi !! Yeah Me ! >.>

SoO I Think That's it for Now
C Ya Soon inShallah =P
Wish U All Happiness Ever after !
*Chaws*

Happy Birthday "el-7elwa" 7yaatii ^^

2008-08-29T00:49:00.000-07:00

It's My Friend's Birthday, She's Turning 15 :D !
Happy Birthday 7ayaaaaaaaaaatiiii ^.^
w-KeL-3aaaaaaaM w-Enty b-1000 5aaair
w-3eGbaaaaaaaaaaaL 100000000000000000000000 Sena
^.^

NONE OF US CAN !

2008-03-07T09:38:00.000-08:00

Yesterday my sister took me to the Cornish, we saw people playing all kinds of sports .. some of them played tines, others played basket and football .. I felt sad and sorry for myself while watching them playing and enjoying their time .. I wished I could play like they did, I wished I can run like they did !!, But because of our stupid society I couldn’t

You Guys can’t imagine how I hate Living here ..! I mean am still young .. actually am a kid [13 years old ] .. but I can’t even ride a bike like every normal kid ! .. I feel sorry for me, my sister, my friends and for those Girls who can watch their brothers, cousins and even FATHERS & UNCLES playing, but can’t go & share them although they really want to .. but she’s not allowed because she is a GIRL !!.. what a nice excuse huh ?!

Do you know what’s really funny about all of this ?, that I know talking in this subject won’t give any positive results .. but never get sick of repeating it !! ..

My sister told me that she can’t take the image of those people enjoying themselves out of her head !! .. I guess none of us can !! NONE OF US CAN

An Amazing Trip to Dubai

2008-02-26T09:37:00.000-08:00

I had so much fun in Dubai yesterday .. we went to [ el-medresa el-a7mdeya ] .. which is the first school in UAE or lets say in this area, cause long time ago we all know there were no borders between Arab countries, then we went to Burjomana Mall .. I wasn’t so excited about it, but it’s not that bad you know .. Finally we went to the Global village, I played and played and played … and am so tired, that’s why I couldn’t write anything yesterday !! … hehe today I didn’t go to school, I mean seriously ! my body hurts so BAD, I can hardly move it .. God be with those who went to school today .. I really really feel SORRY for them .. I feel even more sorry for those who couldn't make it to the trip .. They Missed ALL The FUUUUN ..

These are some of the pictures my Friends took :

Fee e-Darb [StilLoO's Convers] :

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Fee eL-Medresa eL-a7medeya :

[h3 h3 ana YasSa aWaL Wa7da ,, aWanny Sha6ra]

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Fee Markaz Borjoman :

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Fee eL-8arya :

emm, and ya I wanted to say congratulations for şoođ έℓмđàмз, because she had so much trouble convincing her parents to come with us .. : " MabroOok 7yaatiii,I hope you had Fun with us .. I wish it won’t be the last time "

And I wanted to say :"salaaamaaaaaaaaaaat StilLoO Sis" cause she passed out .. I dunno am I cursed or something ?!! , cause every time I go out, someone HAS to pass out .. but anyways , am Glad nothing happened to her =[

hope you all guys had fun yesterday, I personally had so MUCH FUN !!

wish you Guys happiness ever after

Terrible Mood

2008-02-24T09:35:00.000-08:00

We’re going to Dubai tomorrow, I was really excited about the trip and was really planing to enjoy it, but unfortunately, not anymore .. am feeling like I don’t wanna go, I don’t have anything to wear .. Miss Shaima said we had to wear 3BAA MSAKERA & sada if we wanted to wear jeans .. I don’t have 3eba msakkera & sada =S .. I thought of wearing my cute pink & brown mini skirt so I can wear 3eba maftoo7a over it .. but I don’t know what is her point of view about all of this ! .. This is really pissing me off, I spent the Last period crying, not because I don’t have anything to wear of course, but for some reasons which I wanna keep silent about, plus my siste r is having a hard time, you won’t believe how bad I feel about it !! and about the problem she’s facing, I mean .. you know I didn’t use to believe that if someone is sad, his close dudes and friends will be too ! .. but now I DO !!!! .. and actually am kinda surprised .. I didn’t know I Loved her so much “Love you SIS”

aaah you know what I’ll change this sad subject, there is this actor I am absolutely insane about Ian Somerhalder .. so I thought of putting some of his pictures

p.s. : I think you all should know that Friends are such a BLESS !!

So Much on Mind

2008-02-20T09:22:00.000-08:00

I know I haven’t posted anything on my blog since a very long time, but what can i say .. anyways, here am I writing again . Well, First I had a science exam today and thank God it was easy .

em, Second were going on a trip to Dubai with school and am so exited, my friends are also , [men a7eena we're planing sho banelbass] although the trip is on Monday 25-2-2008 .. loool .

ya and my friend’s Birthday was on Saturday : “Happy Birthday 3nooD el-Maha,, Love you so much” , I can’t believe it … it seems like am the youngest Girl in the class, WTF ?!!

and ya I forgot to ask you guys, how do you Like the new theme ?

anyhow that was it

wish you Happiness ever after

With Love, Weewie <3

Some Youtube Videos that Shocked me

2007-12-08T09:18:00.000-08:00

I was just taking a tour in YouTube-by the way it’s an amazing site that has really important videos about Islam and how other people think of Islam that I actually [shamefully] didn’t know-, but since I know now, I felt I have to show you some of the videos that actually shocked me !!!

I’ll start with Islamic Views on Wife Beating; when I saw this video I felt like am gonna cry which I actually did !, Ya it might be silly but I couldn’t stand the fact that people from all over the world are making fun of our prophet and ISLAM.

The second one is a respond on Islam Views on Wife Beating, I just wanna thank this women [Linda], I really was pleased when I saw her video respond .. Re: Islamic Views on Wife Beating

And I also wanted to post the real -7okm- hehe LoL didn’t find the right word ..Wife Beating in Islam - No more than 10 blows!

Thanks for Passing By

Hope You Enjoyed Your Time

And Wish You Happiness Ever After

♥ Good Friends ♥

2007-11-30T08:45:00.000-08:00

Has been a while since I last was in a good Mood !! .. My friends were always asking me the same question everyday :” What’s wrong ?” ,.. I always answered :” Nothing ” , Although the answer was obviously ” Everything ” .., but I never wanted to talk about it .. and even when I tried to talk , No one understood me !!

But thank God am in a better Mood these days ..

Yesterday I received a CD, don’t really know from whom, but I didn’t care that much .. So I opened it & found two new songs for [ el-wasmy ] Loved them [ Salam el-3eshg & ‘6alem be7ekmek ] .., I liked Salam el-3eshg more ..

سلام العشق وأعماقه
يضم القلب وأشواقه
تجيك الروح مشتاقة
تهديك القصيد ألوان

على درب الهوى جينا
من أول ما تلاقينا
تغير كل ما فينا
عشنا فرحة اللأزمان

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عرفنا الحب وأسراره
كتبنا أجمل أشعاره
وغنينا على أوتاره
وطبنا بالغرام الحال

نسينا كل مواجعنا
و بقينا اثنين ما معنا
سوى الأشواق تجمعنا
بلا هجر و بلا حرمان

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ألا يا حبي السامي
لقيتك بأول أيامي
تعال و جدد أحلامي
ترى قلب الهوى سهران

شربت الحب من كاسك
طعم الورد بأنفاسك
كنك عذب باحساسك
وأنا مغرم بك و ولهان

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حبيبي كان ما تدري
ترى حبك بدا يسري
فدمي وإنت يا عمري
سكنت بداخل الشريان

قطعنا الحب و دروبه
وصغنا روعة اسلوبه
حكاية عشق مكتوبة
وصرنا للهوى عنوان

This song is Dedicated to those who cared when I was having such a hard time facing my problems : 3nooD el-Maha [ LoL .. I always laughed on her nickname dunno why ! ] , shmoo5 , StilLoO & şoođ έℓмđàмз , FdaaaaitkoM girls walla a7ebkom <3

Wish You All Happiness Ever After

I'm a Girl, is it my Fault ?!!

2007-11-08T07:57:00.000-08:00

Just before two minutes my mother and my big brother were having some arguments about how he’s out all the time .. so my brother asked Dad for some money , and my father gave him .. Mom was mad at Dads reaction , till that moment I had a big smile on my face .. but that smile disappeared when my mother shouted : "Don’t let him go .. he haven’t studied yet , and he has been out the whole week" .. do you guys know what was my fathers respond ? .. "let him hang out with his friends , he’s not a GIRL !!" .. I couldn’t hear anymore so I took myself out of the room as fast as I could and came - here - to my room so I can cry !! ..

Why can’t my father and every man who thinks the same way he does, just understand that we didn’t choose to be girls , I mean if I had the choice to choose me .. I definitely wouldn’t have chosen me , I probably would have chosen to be a boy , my words may surprise some of you , but it’s the truth that no girl till now in our society has facen it ..

Some of you may say : "what’s wrong with that girl , is she out of her mind" , and I say to anyone who thinks that am crazy : "AM NOT" , it’s because I know I'm right it’s , because am sick of being humiliated because of something I have no hand in , I'm sick of taking my fathers silly comments , I'm sick of hearing him telling my Mom that he wishes she had brought us all boys .. I'm sick of being blamed for being a GIRL , I'm sick of having to hear all of these stuff and keep my mouth shut .. I'm sick of having to smile in his face when ever I see him , and can never tell him how I truly feel about him being my dad and how do I feel being his daughter ..

I don’t hate my father , I love him .. I mean he’s my dad I can’t help it , but as my sister once said : "I love him , but I don’t have to show him my love .."

I wish I can shout , so that everyone can hear me and say : "I'm a GIRL .. , is it my FAULT ?!"

What a Shame !

2007-06-09T07:16:00.000-07:00

What a shame I can't remember when was the Last Time I saw you :( .. What a shame I can't remember these amazing words of this lovely song you used to repeat when ever you saw me .. What a shame I can see a copy of you where ever I go , but can never see the real you .. What a shame I can't remember the places you used to take me .. What a shame I can't remember the car you used to drive ..

What a shame I Lost that little pink bag you bought me .. What a shame you went before you buy me the Bird you promised me to buy .. What a shame I keep wishing on every Birthday to see you again , but my wish never come true .. What a shame I never had the chance to tell you how much I loved you .. What a shame I have to see this innocent child you left behind and see in his eyes the same look you used to see me in and hope that one day I'll see your eyes .. What a shame I can't tell you how much I miss you .. What a shame that I keep staring at your picture for hours and know that I can do nothing but cry on the Wonderful times we spent together .. What a shame when ever our family gathers I wish you were there .. with us .. and between us , sharing us every second of our lives , every minute , every hour and every day ..

What a shame you went before saying : " Bye Marwaty " .. ya .. I remember , you used to call me Marwaty ... well I guess this is the only thing that I still believe that neither you nor I will forget .. and I will stay here waiting for the moment I hear you calling me again ..

My Only Sister

2007-06-09T06:55:00.000-07:00

I can say I have the Most Amazing Sister in the World, and if choosing our sisters was an optional thing I know I wouldn't have chosen another sister .
Well she DO bug me all the time, but I have to admit it, I like the way she does it .. and it's not that I don't bug her back !! LOL [but walla not as much as she does] OK want the truth ?! she is annoying sometimes, but I think it's part of her personality .. I mean it's too late to change it now !! Nnd it's not completely her fault, it's something in our blood, LOL.
Nada, Hmmm .. [what can I say about her] she is so Georges and the most the warm-hearted person I've ever seen, she can be pleased so easily, she is so kind and she is SO suitable in her place, I mean I don't think I would accept any other sister but her.
I remember my last Birthday, I was at my grandma's house.. I woke up in the morning and thought that every one will remember my Birthday, but my thoughts were completely wrong.. no one.. I mean no one remembered my Birthday.. even my mom !!.. :( she always say that she remembered it and even if she didn't her mobile alarm would remind her, but What's the point of remembering my Birthday if She Didn't wish me a "Happy Birthday" !!
But this year my Birthday was completely different.. I mean my BEST sister and my ONLY one took me to the cinema and we saw a really nice movie [Pirates of the Caribbean 3] I really had fun.. and that was her gift [what a nice one huh ?] well it was I guess my BEST gift [my parents shall never read this cause if they did they'll be Very upset cause they really did their best to make my Birthday this year so special and make me forget what happened last year and I really appreciate what they did -Don't you just Love My Family ?-] .
I really enjoy being around my sister.. she always make me feel better .. don't know how she does it , but I know that it always work.
Don't you guys love my sister ? I really really do.

A Note : Don't know what made me write this ... , but I guess she's gonna like it *Hope so*

a Rat in our Classroom !!

2007-04-27T06:23:00.000-07:00

This morning was a normal one until our first lesson started -Science [YUUUUK] and just to let you know my Disk is close to the cupboard- anyhow, the teacher entered the class, greeted us and asked us to head the lab, so I went to get my book and that's when i heard Shmoo5 SCREAMING, I didn't pay so much attention to her because she screams a LOT :P, But after a second I heard Nota Shouting I knew that they saw something scary and disgusting, so I started shouting and screaming too !!.. Nota ran out of the Classroom -scared to death-:" it's a RAT, it's a RAT !! " she screamed, pushing everyone out of her way and telling them to run ! LOOL .. She looked Funny =P
So the whole class was shouting, yelling and running !
Now we all were out in the Corridor making an unbearable noise while Grade 12 were having there Final Exam !

After the boring lesson we returned to classroom trying to convince ourselves that the rat was gone, but my friend was pushing the teacher's table carelessly and the rat came out running towards the door where all the girls were standing !.. Can you imagine the situation ?! :S .. I SAW the disgusting rat with my own eyes .. and it was BROWN >.<, you Guys won't believe how we were dying to get out of the classroom, even the rat was SCARED to see us running like that, LOL !!

After all that Yelling we were able to find an empty classroom till they caught the rat !

a Surprise Party on my Birthday !

2007-03-08T05:36:00.000-08:00

28-5-2005 .. a Date That I Will Never Forget, I was in the 6th Grade and it was The Last Day of School. My Friends asked me to Walk with them in the school's playground -and that is something I don't do a lot, I Felt Something unusual, but I played cool and acted like I knew nothing-. So I went walking with them .. after a while a friend of mine came and asked me to go to the classroom, I went with her upstairs and GUESS WHAT !!.. It was a BIRTHDAY PARTY !!!! I was Speechless, didn't know what to do .. I Hugged the closest girl to me at that moment just to cover my face, hehe .. It was very impressing but so Sweet in the Same time !.. I mean how many girls get to have a surprise party on her Birthday ;) And The Best Thing in The whole Party was the Cake, it was DELICIOUS !

And of course The Gifts were Great !!.. LOL I had Lots and LOTS Of Them, I Had to make my Dad Help me carrying them .. and I also Remember him Stealing my box of chocolate >.< .. I will never forgive him for that .. lol *Kidding*